Monday, September 24, 2007

Appetite problem

A chubby person is happy person ... and I agree, it applies to me.

I used to be chubbier than I am now. Not anymore. I lost weight, I wasn't as chubby as when I first got home. It isn't the drinking that makes me chubbier okay, I did not drink alcohol a lot, I drank orange juice a lot over there. In a very short period, I lost all my chubbiness. I don't know where it went. But, I admit that I have not been eating properly and as much as I used to. I used to have giant appetite. How would I describe my appetite is ... from hero to zero. Once I ate with Adik in a Phillipino restaurant in Geneva, and we had a competition. He's not those skinny skinny fellas but a big eater. Who knows I ate 4 and he ate 2 and I can still eat.

It wasn't that bad last month but this month has been bad, especially lately. Yes, I do get hungry. However, when people get hungry, they eat a lot. But, not me or rather not anymore. A drink can make me full these days. I don't know if it's the working hours, my emotion, or anything like that.

I feel like something is just not right. I feel as if something is bothering and the question now is ... but what? For that I am trying to figure out too, I just could not. It's the inner self I guess? No time for that.

Am I entirely happy for things are now? Answer is no. But, I do feel a temporary of happiness. I am glad that there are people out there who knows my existence HAHA, omg I sound so pathetic, anyway you get the drift.

When you put nice food, or just food in front of me 6 months ago, I will just gobble it up BUT ... if you put it now ... I will just go ... oh food, no thanks. Perhaps, emotionally unstable haha. My appetite is terrible now. It feels like something is missing now, and I just don't know what it is or what are they. HELFEN! Maybe Bruder is right. Am I too exhausted? am I too fatigue? Really I don't think so. Seriously, I don't know. Have you felt like this before? Tell me you all do and I am not the only one. It will make me happy because it shows that I am normal. hehe.

C'est la vie

8 comments:

claudine said...

i think you sewel edi lar michy. :P

Mochii said...

hahah no .. im perfectly normal :p

tIcKLeMe said...

emo la my sp lately.

Iwan Sanchez said...

alamak...
is it becos u are too exhausted in ur work, that is y u lost all the appetite?

U are too drained to eat.. it happened to me too.. so u are perfectly normal ok..

But i tot woman all suka to be kurus?

hahahahaha!!

Puvan said...

think positive....slimmer can get you the ticket to america top model??who know???gos willing it might happen....

Mochii said...

sp: mana ada la haha

iwan: i dont know, appetite is ok la .. but the one that im curious about is seems that something is bothering me at times n i really dunno what it is no not all women love to be thin like stick haha

puvan: haha that wouldnt be me :S

Iwan Sanchez said...

hmmmm,,, somethin bothering u..

i can tell actaully.. u kinda behave differently lately..

Hmmmmmmmm...........

selalu~ said...

errrr....jom makan ice cream kat market .... mau ke?