OMG! This is already the last ever day of 2008, how time flies, gosh anyone explain, like, please? Coz I never knew how it flew. Just like a blink, we are already approaching 2009, so so soon, just a couple of hours left.
I guess this year is the only year that I drag myself as it advance to the brand new year. Why? This is the 2nd consecutive year, I am working a bloody night shift, like as if there is no other shift to work. Partly because of my shift, but the primary headache is because of the night partner =.= haha anyways.
How was 2008? It wasn't as good as I thought. People were looking forward to this year in a matter of fact, but it turned out to be one of the worst years. So many people passed away, business were bad, economic went downhill, people act so weirdly, and so substantially this year is coming to an end now. Again, the same circles run through. Looking forward so brightly with a tunnel filled with lights and hopes to realise the dreams one has and as the year passed, our faith slowly fades off reluctantly.
Hoping to start the new year with a bang and ends with a bang, and of course enjoy the journey along the way.
Happy New Year 2009!
Grüezi. 안녕하세요. The day I began to live is the day I discovered being an introvert was awesome - Maxime Lagacé
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Oh my Christmas
It's the 30th of December already, Christmas is already over. I enjoyed my Christmas really, thanks. It's like one of the best Christmas I had aside of that Christmas in Paris. Of course, that, is incomparable. Initially, it was just me and Potato, but then, just a few days from Christmas, there was some random thingy that Shaz's name came up so yeah~
We were there and that someone went to the gym, and he could not even see when we sat in front of the gym. Tsk tsk. He just walked and walked =.= What I really wanted that time was food food and food, nothing else but food. This isn't a good idea, nobody knows what to eat, bad! Nevermind, I suddenly thought about Paddington Pancake House, the first ever time I met Shaz, and he didn't even know that was our first meeting until I told him. How sad? He always thought that our first meeting was in Starbucks but actually this is D place.
As we sat and place the order, it's pics time while waited for the food to come, which of course will take some time
I just realized there was a poodle beside me HAHA sorry Kylie :P
OMG! DOes anyone know who is this? Coz I don't! =.=
My lala pose before year ends :S
Why does Kylie looks like she's afraid :D :D haha I shall do this more
The food finally arrives ...
People, guess how old is this kid? 4? wrong! He's only 2 :D
We have now done with Paddington ... the signage to end with babeh :)
We were there and that someone went to the gym, and he could not even see when we sat in front of the gym. Tsk tsk. He just walked and walked =.= What I really wanted that time was food food and food, nothing else but food. This isn't a good idea, nobody knows what to eat, bad! Nevermind, I suddenly thought about Paddington Pancake House, the first ever time I met Shaz, and he didn't even know that was our first meeting until I told him. How sad? He always thought that our first meeting was in Starbucks but actually this is D place.
As we sat and place the order, it's pics time while waited for the food to come, which of course will take some time
I just realized there was a poodle beside me HAHA sorry Kylie :P
OMG! DOes anyone know who is this? Coz I don't! =.=
My lala pose before year ends :S
Why does Kylie looks like she's afraid :D :D haha I shall do this more
The food finally arrives ...
People, guess how old is this kid? 4? wrong! He's only 2 :D
We have now done with Paddington ... the signage to end with babeh :)
Beschriften:
festivals,
gin kau,
greetings and dedications,
outings,
Western
Thursday, December 25, 2008
Randomly snapped
OMG! Can you believe that, I slept for 15 hours o.O Well, I can, I have done it countless times before :s but stilll ... omg =.=
Yea right after Loft we came here ... down to carpark, and this is just by the way kinda thing. Kimberly Loke ... haha ... your ex-home :P
Dede ...
Then me ..
Then ... off we left ... haha ... buh bye full stop.
Yea right after Loft we came here ... down to carpark, and this is just by the way kinda thing. Kimberly Loke ... haha ... your ex-home :P
Dede ...
Then me ..
Then ... off we left ... haha ... buh bye full stop.
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Merry Christmas 2008!
It's time of the year again, Santa's in town, a time of celebration, the time of joy, and literally enjoy the moment of sharing and giving. Tho the pocket hurts, like really really hurts, but yea it's the time to give give and give
So everyone Happy a Meryy Merry Xmas people ... may you all blessed with a better year next year.
It's christmas now and it's just the time to get together, celebrate together and cherish the moment of togetherness. =)
We say Joyeux Noel =)
Yeah right after this, it's time to make you resolution for 2009!
So everyone Happy a Meryy Merry Xmas people ... may you all blessed with a better year next year.
It's christmas now and it's just the time to get together, celebrate together and cherish the moment of togetherness. =)
We say Joyeux Noel =)
Yeah right after this, it's time to make you resolution for 2009!
Beschriften:
festivals,
greetings and dedications
Saturday, December 20, 2008
The Loft @ Heritage Row
The other day already didn't intend to go, lazy and this, and that, and finally still end up in the club. Yea a club after ... how long? Er don't know. Today is one of the weirdest day I ever known because of all people that I know, Lulu called but couldn't get through but somehow I messaged him hours later to ask what and what and asked me to go clubbing o.O Yeah imagine, it's Lulu okay =.= In an unrelated event, as per title, right after work, we went. Padapa padap.
That night was outrageous I tell you. I felt like there's gonna be the end of the world that anytime could happen. This place where is not a stage, but somehow it has that stage kinda floor haha ... those people both genders were jumping up and down, like it's gonna fall ANYIME. I know they were happy, having fun BUT ... don't kill all of us ... please? A brief nite, I was more interested to eat then. haha. It shows how far have I gone to, that I am no longer those who are interested in this kinda night life anymore. I am more keen towards food, but somehow people said, I am losing weight? Er ... why? Not one, not two, but many more, from those I often meet, to those that I have not met for a long long time. Heh. It can't be true.
Dede and Rachel ... haha
And us .. though we divorced but still, we ended up there together. Yes it's true we divorced but we are still friends you know. We never fought haha. It's mutual and we are glad :P
I wore the wrong tee there that night ... I know I am so whatever ... it looks the same '=.=
That night was outrageous I tell you. I felt like there's gonna be the end of the world that anytime could happen. This place where is not a stage, but somehow it has that stage kinda floor haha ... those people both genders were jumping up and down, like it's gonna fall ANYIME. I know they were happy, having fun BUT ... don't kill all of us ... please? A brief nite, I was more interested to eat then. haha. It shows how far have I gone to, that I am no longer those who are interested in this kinda night life anymore. I am more keen towards food, but somehow people said, I am losing weight? Er ... why? Not one, not two, but many more, from those I often meet, to those that I have not met for a long long time. Heh. It can't be true.
Dede and Rachel ... haha
And us .. though we divorced but still, we ended up there together. Yes it's true we divorced but we are still friends you know. We never fought haha. It's mutual and we are glad :P
I wore the wrong tee there that night ... I know I am so whatever ... it looks the same '=.=
Beschriften:
outings,
trinken oder Getränke
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Shame by Jasvinder Sanghera
I have just finished a book, with the title Shame.
It's a true story of the writer who struggles to survive in a real cruel world. It started off when she was young and innocent in England, but from an Asian decent and practises every single values that how an Asian was like decades ago. Girls are meant to be at home to serve the husband, never allowed to go out, it was bad, and it took a turn when she saw a photograph of the man whom she never met but was told he was going to be her husband. She told her mom she wanted to finish school and go to college. Her mom was mad, real mad for what she said. One day, she ran away from home, as she was unable to put up with forced marriage, even more so after seeing her elder sisters going through trauma and sufferings with their arranged marriages, she doesn't want to end up like her sisters. She believes in love marriage, rather than arranged marriages. As a result, her parents disowned her for 7 long years, and her mom told her she's dead in her eyes. How much time has been wasted. Her family faced humiliation in the community and during those times, family honour matters more than anything else, much more than life itself. Her elder sister committed suicide, as she could not take the beatings up and her abusive husband any longer. When she turned to her parents, to the community leader, they turned her away and instead of being supportive, they told her to return to her husband. She has no where to turn to, her family reminded her of the family honour and must not let the family down. Instead of escaping, she took away her own life.
She worked hard, all alone, with her and her then husband, without the support of the family. She's independent to live outside the world, on her two own feet and able to raise her own family.
This book promotes the voices of women today. I like how she narrates it. One should not just put up on fate, but rather control your own life. Your life is in your hands. Even it's impossible, you make it possible, just like how she did. You gain your own happiness, and violence, abuse, cannot be done as we all have human rights. Probably some people out there are still going through this somewhere in the world and you never know. Fortunately for us, we don't and we are not in that era anymore.
A very heart wrenching, touching and inspiring story :)
Today, there is a project of Karma Nirvana to help women out from forced marriages and honour based violence, found by the writer of this book.
Karma Nirvana
Monday, December 15, 2008
Birthday dinner at Marche
And again, another birthday of mine. If one wonders how many birthdays I have a year, wait til you see someone else who celebrates for the whole month. Then you will say that mine is like what, 3 year old compared to 20 year olds. hehe. Anyways, I decided to have it this time in my all-time favourate restaurant since its opening until today - Marche. It's something I have nothing bad to say but only good things. Marche means market in French. It's a Swiss delicacy that one can only dreamed of at the beginning but today, you can make that a reality - having a Swiss cuisine in KL What I miss a lot in this restaurant that they once used to have is fondue, yea the ever-indulging cheese fondue that I could only yearn for.
Okay I know this is nothing different, it's just a coconut water lolz
This is something something, ordered by Potato
This is mine, the typical Swiss food ... roesti that I once used to have it every single weekend for as long as 6 months. It's potato btw haha
Yea my hair was kinda fugly back then, and lala-ish of course and I could still wear brown lenses haha
This is the human potato - Kylie haha
That's about it, Happy Birthday to myself .. haha I am officially 24, that I had turned almost 3 months ago, and I am a rat, a pure rat haha
Okay I know this is nothing different, it's just a coconut water lolz
This is something something, ordered by Potato
This is mine, the typical Swiss food ... roesti that I once used to have it every single weekend for as long as 6 months. It's potato btw haha
Yea my hair was kinda fugly back then, and lala-ish of course and I could still wear brown lenses haha
This is the human potato - Kylie haha
That's about it, Happy Birthday to myself .. haha I am officially 24, that I had turned almost 3 months ago, and I am a rat, a pure rat haha
Sunday, December 14, 2008
Happy Birthday, Mommie Clod
This took place yesterday ...
It was her birthday, Mommie Clod. Harpie Birthdayyyy ... and wishing you all the best and many many returns to you, best in health, wealth and in every single aspect in life.
Though we hadn't spent time with each other a lot, but ... those times that we had was memorable and I really do wish we have more time for each other o.O How I wish we could turn back time eh. So far away in distance. Haha time when she took us around London ... by walking :o haha
And ... I am really looking forward to see you next year :) really rweallly hope for that to happen :D
Mommieee, missing you XD haha
Why Mommie? Coz she puts me as her daughter in Facebook =.= LOL
I really wish to put her picture here, but I'm afraid she will disagree and ask me to take it down later :S
It was her birthday, Mommie Clod. Harpie Birthdayyyy ... and wishing you all the best and many many returns to you, best in health, wealth and in every single aspect in life.
Though we hadn't spent time with each other a lot, but ... those times that we had was memorable and I really do wish we have more time for each other o.O How I wish we could turn back time eh. So far away in distance. Haha time when she took us around London ... by walking :o haha
And ... I am really looking forward to see you next year :) really rweallly hope for that to happen :D
Mommieee, missing you XD haha
Why Mommie? Coz she puts me as her daughter in Facebook =.= LOL
I really wish to put her picture here, but I'm afraid she will disagree and ask me to take it down later :S
Beschriften:
Auf wiedersehen und Grüezi,
Geburstag,
greetings and dedications,
verschwunden
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Hair cut
I have just finished my night shift, oh voila I'm back to day shift today.
Last week I had a hair cut. Yeah like finally after being somewhat annoyed with my messy hair before this, as it had grown so fast, yea like so so fast, just within 2 months. Then it's time to visit Vincent. At the same time, Mac Dong Dong wanted to have a hair cut too, so we went together, and well, I know it was my first day night shift that day but knowing it that it was her birthday, I sacrificed my beauty sleep for her :D haha
So darn messy hair
Then trimmed ... til this short but then, ex-wife wanted to cut as well, so I went there the 2nd time within one week, again I did something to my hair
Yes I know it's darn short lolz, my hair just gets shorter and shorter
But hey there is a girl side too okay!
Vincentttt! Ur the best haha ...
Last week I had a hair cut. Yeah like finally after being somewhat annoyed with my messy hair before this, as it had grown so fast, yea like so so fast, just within 2 months. Then it's time to visit Vincent. At the same time, Mac Dong Dong wanted to have a hair cut too, so we went together, and well, I know it was my first day night shift that day but knowing it that it was her birthday, I sacrificed my beauty sleep for her :D haha
So darn messy hair
Then trimmed ... til this short but then, ex-wife wanted to cut as well, so I went there the 2nd time within one week, again I did something to my hair
Yes I know it's darn short lolz, my hair just gets shorter and shorter
But hey there is a girl side too okay!
Vincentttt! Ur the best haha ...
Friday, December 5, 2008
Birthday @ Sakae Sushi
I had a couple of birthday celebrations. But the biggest one was the one I posted before. Others were just small tiny mini ones heheh.
The destination chose was .... chang chang ... Sakae Sushi. I felt so embarassed when the first ever time I had Sakae was not that long ago in KLCC. I mean it has been around for awhile now and majority had tasted or step into this place before. But me .. *in total paisehness* took the first step few months back only when people from other countries, other states, can travel all down to get a taste of it hehe. My first time eating this also was caught by my boss having it and I only knew that he was also there at the same place the day after. It's completely potong stim-ness.
Simple yet refreshing. Plain yet satisfying.
Absolutely concentrating o.O
Heheh ... yumzzzz
The destination chose was .... chang chang ... Sakae Sushi. I felt so embarassed when the first ever time I had Sakae was not that long ago in KLCC. I mean it has been around for awhile now and majority had tasted or step into this place before. But me .. *in total paisehness* took the first step few months back only when people from other countries, other states, can travel all down to get a taste of it hehe. My first time eating this also was caught by my boss having it and I only knew that he was also there at the same place the day after. It's completely potong stim-ness.
Simple yet refreshing. Plain yet satisfying.
Absolutely concentrating o.O
Heheh ... yumzzzz
Thursday, December 4, 2008
We divorced
It's official, after 2 years and 5 months being together, we broke up, or you can say we divorced.
It's such a waste that so much that we had been through together, just vanished. We were so close that people thought we are gonna get married anytime and anywhere but who knows, this news just came abruptly. I am presently too shocked, too stunned to respond to this overwhelming news.
That's life I guess, both parties are heartbroken. We had chosen to lead our own individual's life without any of us interferring into each other. We had talked about it, we had tried our level best to solve the misunderstanding and the dissatisfaction we had about each other but nothing could saviour this relationship anymore. There is no more solution and that's when we decided perhaps we should just end it all here.
Life's unfair, when we thought we had found that special someone, things just happen unexpectedly and both of us thought we will settle down with each other until things happen between us. We are actually this close to register ourselves. Well. I hope we do not end it this way, it's devastating, it's a tragedy for the both of us. Unlike normal couples, we have our own issues, much more complicated than normal couples. We are still colleagues, we enjoy working with each other, we are still friends nevertheless. We didn't make another enemy when we broke up this morning, instead we made it clear we must not step and control into the other's life, but just be a normal friend, or rather a special friend, whichever you wanna call it. We will still be there for another if it is required, that's our agreement when we broke up. Honestly speaking, it's such a waste. Tears kept on rolling down. It's so distressing to be in this current position and I felt the numbness within me.
Where is my sacred home. I am searching for you.
We are divorced now. Both of us are now available now, and we are pretty much single I'm supposed, or maybe not, as we are both too occupied trying to adapt to that major change and trying to calm ourselves down. Look at our status, both are single, after how long we were in the relationship. Life's sad.
I will update our well being and the changes once in awhile. I hope both of us could go through this hard phrase of our life. It's one of the saddest point. Dede, I hope you are happy there :) Thank you for being there for me when I needed you the most.
It's such a waste that so much that we had been through together, just vanished. We were so close that people thought we are gonna get married anytime and anywhere but who knows, this news just came abruptly. I am presently too shocked, too stunned to respond to this overwhelming news.
That's life I guess, both parties are heartbroken. We had chosen to lead our own individual's life without any of us interferring into each other. We had talked about it, we had tried our level best to solve the misunderstanding and the dissatisfaction we had about each other but nothing could saviour this relationship anymore. There is no more solution and that's when we decided perhaps we should just end it all here.
Life's unfair, when we thought we had found that special someone, things just happen unexpectedly and both of us thought we will settle down with each other until things happen between us. We are actually this close to register ourselves. Well. I hope we do not end it this way, it's devastating, it's a tragedy for the both of us. Unlike normal couples, we have our own issues, much more complicated than normal couples. We are still colleagues, we enjoy working with each other, we are still friends nevertheless. We didn't make another enemy when we broke up this morning, instead we made it clear we must not step and control into the other's life, but just be a normal friend, or rather a special friend, whichever you wanna call it. We will still be there for another if it is required, that's our agreement when we broke up. Honestly speaking, it's such a waste. Tears kept on rolling down. It's so distressing to be in this current position and I felt the numbness within me.
Where is my sacred home. I am searching for you.
We are divorced now. Both of us are now available now, and we are pretty much single I'm supposed, or maybe not, as we are both too occupied trying to adapt to that major change and trying to calm ourselves down. Look at our status, both are single, after how long we were in the relationship. Life's sad.
I will update our well being and the changes once in awhile. I hope both of us could go through this hard phrase of our life. It's one of the saddest point. Dede, I hope you are happy there :) Thank you for being there for me when I needed you the most.
Beschriften:
Auf wiedersehen und Grüezi,
crap,
danke viel mal,
greetings and dedications,
verschwunden
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
Coincidence
Being in the industry I am currently in, it allows you to meet loads of people, and I meant loads. It depends though, sometimes it can be really ironic. Yes, working means people and people means working. Sometimes you feel you don't wanna meet people but it's just your job, it's part of your job. True, you get to meet people and stuff, but if you are talking about hanging out with people, it's not "D" industry because working hours is just odd. Yeah yeah I know ... I meet people everyday, but you know, these people are not the people I wanna meet! Sometimes I really feel like I wanna go into office job but knowing me, myself, I will fall asleep within 2 minutes lolz.
The other day so ... I was checking out this lady and I heard a very strange accent. It was her husband. Okay, it's nothing wrong of having an angmo husband, absolutely nothing wrong. But, this is different, VERY indeed. WHY? Because it happens to be someone I knew back in college. Of course he wasn't my classmate d'uh, he's way too old to be one. He was actually my lecturer, many many years back, yes I entered college 6 years ago =/= eesh. My German lecturer to be precise. I never said anything haha, he never said anything lolz. But perhaps he knew it was me, or maybe not, coz this fella here, changed a lot over the years.
I didn't wanna say anything either because ... because .... because ... er ... I made him vomit blood before? It wasn't my intention but it's ... er ... natural? No matter what, I wasn't the worst so that matters okay haha.
Ich verstehe nicht auch, warum ich nicht sagen Hoi. Bin ich schlecht? Umm ... ich weiss nicht
The other day so ... I was checking out this lady and I heard a very strange accent. It was her husband. Okay, it's nothing wrong of having an angmo husband, absolutely nothing wrong. But, this is different, VERY indeed. WHY? Because it happens to be someone I knew back in college. Of course he wasn't my classmate d'uh, he's way too old to be one. He was actually my lecturer, many many years back, yes I entered college 6 years ago =/= eesh. My German lecturer to be precise. I never said anything haha, he never said anything lolz. But perhaps he knew it was me, or maybe not, coz this fella here, changed a lot over the years.
I didn't wanna say anything either because ... because .... because ... er ... I made him vomit blood before? It wasn't my intention but it's ... er ... natural? No matter what, I wasn't the worst so that matters okay haha.
Ich verstehe nicht auch, warum ich nicht sagen Hoi. Bin ich schlecht? Umm ... ich weiss nicht
Beschriften:
Arbeit o Internship,
Deutsch,
Schule
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
Oriental Nite Part 4
It's the Oriental that I promised ... everyone turned Oriental, even the most impossible person, me, turned one haha though er ... it's my uniform lolz
It's us
They call her the sick dancer haha .. was really sick on that day itself
Lau Zhang aka Danny Boi
My boss
Female name - Claudia lolz I thought who was this chic who knows t'was him haha
haha Annie-chan such a long time. She misses hotel too much o.O
The girls ... no guys haha
That's it I supposed, in the end, FO won and deja vu, I got a digital camera Canon 7.1 megapixels as soon as I entered and started eating. So blurred out as I just woke up o.O
It's us
They call her the sick dancer haha .. was really sick on that day itself
Lau Zhang aka Danny Boi
My boss
Female name - Claudia lolz I thought who was this chic who knows t'was him haha
haha Annie-chan such a long time. She misses hotel too much o.O
The girls ... no guys haha
That's it I supposed, in the end, FO won and deja vu, I got a digital camera Canon 7.1 megapixels as soon as I entered and started eating. So blurred out as I just woke up o.O
Beschriften:
Arbeit o Internship,
Beauty n Mode,
Bilder,
Chinois
Monday, December 1, 2008
I'n on MC after one year
After one week of silence, for the mourning of a dear friend, my blog has finally decided to make a comeback, but not in a very good way I'm afraid
After one year plus, this is my day to MC ... though I didn't want to. No, I am not close being workaholic, I just do not wanna have MCs but then force does not bring happiness, instead it can only bring sufferings. I now understand it completely.
I really have no intention whatsoever to go on MC. I never thought about it, until my eyes went @-@. Now I realized I am THAT stubborn. One of my colleague told me, why not just stay home and get MC, instead of coming to work and going home later. I told him then, I never thought of MC-ing and I thought I can manage to workkk. But I overestimated my cabability apparently. MC once per year is not too much to ask for. I promised I never pretended.
And being MC, I never know what is happening outside. I actually slept for 18 hours o.O I felt so groggy and I am just stuck in my whole new world. I am feeling much better and Thank God, I actually have day off the day after and night shift 2 days after, which I can blatantly rest in a maximum volume.
To tell you the truth, this is the first ever time I actually wanted to see a doctor so badly, in so many years. All along, even when I had fallen sick, I prefer not to see a doctor til the extent of feeling unbearably sick. AND ... this is the first ever time I went to see a panel doctor. I tell you, the feeling was so different and being able to walk out from the doctor without a need to take out a single cent from my pocket is so darn cool. Uberly cool. haha.
I'm gonna rest, I'm gonna sleep, and I'm gonna rest again, being sick make me feel so useless. I hate feeling so. No matter what, I will survive, I will cure, and I will be back again. Omg ... drama =.=
After one year plus, this is my day to MC ... though I didn't want to. No, I am not close being workaholic, I just do not wanna have MCs but then force does not bring happiness, instead it can only bring sufferings. I now understand it completely.
I really have no intention whatsoever to go on MC. I never thought about it, until my eyes went @-@. Now I realized I am THAT stubborn. One of my colleague told me, why not just stay home and get MC, instead of coming to work and going home later. I told him then, I never thought of MC-ing and I thought I can manage to workkk. But I overestimated my cabability apparently. MC once per year is not too much to ask for. I promised I never pretended.
And being MC, I never know what is happening outside. I actually slept for 18 hours o.O I felt so groggy and I am just stuck in my whole new world. I am feeling much better and Thank God, I actually have day off the day after and night shift 2 days after, which I can blatantly rest in a maximum volume.
To tell you the truth, this is the first ever time I actually wanted to see a doctor so badly, in so many years. All along, even when I had fallen sick, I prefer not to see a doctor til the extent of feeling unbearably sick. AND ... this is the first ever time I went to see a panel doctor. I tell you, the feeling was so different and being able to walk out from the doctor without a need to take out a single cent from my pocket is so darn cool. Uberly cool. haha.
I'm gonna rest, I'm gonna sleep, and I'm gonna rest again, being sick make me feel so useless. I hate feeling so. No matter what, I will survive, I will cure, and I will be back again. Omg ... drama =.=
Beschriften:
Arbeit o Internship,
blog,
health n wellness
Monday, November 24, 2008
Rest In Peace, "Baby" We Miss Ya
To himself everyone is immortal; he may know that he is going to die, but he can never know that he is dead. ~Samuel Butler
Death a friend that alone can bring the peace his treasures cannot purchase, and remove the pain his physicians cannot cure. ~Mortimer Collins
At this point of time, I am totally speechless. Speechless and just real speechless. I am just too shocked with the news. An ex-classmate of mine had told me to check my mail and I did as being told.
To my shocking surprise, or rather I am just too stunned ... too dumbfounded to say anything anymore, that, our ex-classmate ... had laid to rest on 22nd November, 2 days back.
I knew her back in college, when we were still young, very young, going through classes together and all. She was this cute, bubbly and cheerful girl despite her having a chronic disease from an early age until the day she took her last breath. That wasn't all, she was also hit by a viral infection last June and having said that, she had to go countless surgeries, in and out of the hospital. We had this friendship bonded, partly because our birthday was one day apart. Losing her is such a waste, she was being nice to everyone, genuine and treated people with pure sincerity. How many people have you ever met like this. We crapped a lot, and I remembered many people used to tease her with Kyoto or something like that.
It was Heng Yap who was in coma before this and passed away, and now it's her. How fragile life is if one wonder. It's just too fragile. One minute you are here, the next minute you can't guarantee you are still gonna be here. Life is so unfair. Nice people always go first, and the bad ones stay longer. How tragical is this. I am in total disbelief, it seems that it was just yesterday we were in KDU cafeteria doing our assignments off together, crapping in the middle, and talking on the phone the next minute, but who knows, today, right now, I can't believe my eyes after reading that email that she isn't longer here. It feels so dubious and vague, but no, it's a matter of fact, that she had passed away and she is no longer here, and me, is unable to see her again, anymore, and it will just be the past and anything ... but the past. I regretted for not being to meet her before her passings. We said once, that we will meet each other after she moved house. Days, weeks, months and year passed and we have yet to meet and right now, chances are no longer here with me. It's just a dream to meet her.
She was part of my life, she had once left a big path in my heart and I will never ever forget her. Though she is very small size, but she had left a big mark there and can never be erased. I guess, it's too late to say and do anything, but if she ever wonders, yes ... I miss ya. We were together 2 years, and we had gone through a lot together, and guess what ... we had spent 4 hours on the phone before. No joke, 4 hours yes. All the ups and down, thick and thin. What can I say now, absolutely nothing. I didn't even know she was hit with the viral infection, and even when I asked her how's life treating her, she never mentioned one bit about it. Why didn't she. I know she didn't want anyone to worry .. but ... WHY.
In a matter of fact, I am actually too numb to type this out even. I am just as startled as when I just heard it. Slowly and gradually, I am accepting it. I am just grateful that I met her, that she had once shared her life with me, that we were just ... friends. We had lost a good person.
Seeing her going through under so many injections, all the time, I felt sorry and I felt she was really strong when she was still alive. All her life, and being so small size, she could withstand it until at the age of 23. She really had the determination, and I respect her for that, and I really meant it. It isn't easy, perhaps, if it was me, I would have given up hope on life. But, she always see hope and faith. For us, we have no mental strength to go to work and all, and people like her has to worry, whether she could go on living the next day, and she wonders if she can make it just for another day. It was such a daily worry for her. And .. why even we complaining. She told me before how worry she was before. Doctor told her once she could live until only for a few years from the time I know her, and she exceeded the doctor's estimation. Bravo! I am sure everyone's proud of her, it's her achievement. At least, she had seen the world, she grew up in Japan before, Turkey, England and Malaysia of course. I guess all her dreams came true, she even finished her degree in Leeds and everything else was accomplished. She told me she was afraid to be close to people, as she knows one day, she will just be gone, just like that and I had told her, at least, you were part of them before, and the most important is to enjoy your life while you can. She had accomplished her dream and even having that disease all along, and need constant treatment, she managed to go over to Leeds, all by herself. Her energy drive was so strong that people should learn from her in my very honest opinion. It's a guidance, a life guidance that should be shared.
This picture is ought not to be laughed at, "Baby" we miss you loads, that's what I call her, hope you are now in a better place, free from torments, tortures, injections and worries and hope you are much happier in a better place :)
KDU Dip 7 Zoo miss you ... and I meant, we really do miss you
Death a friend that alone can bring the peace his treasures cannot purchase, and remove the pain his physicians cannot cure. ~Mortimer Collins
At this point of time, I am totally speechless. Speechless and just real speechless. I am just too shocked with the news. An ex-classmate of mine had told me to check my mail and I did as being told.
To my shocking surprise, or rather I am just too stunned ... too dumbfounded to say anything anymore, that, our ex-classmate ... had laid to rest on 22nd November, 2 days back.
I knew her back in college, when we were still young, very young, going through classes together and all. She was this cute, bubbly and cheerful girl despite her having a chronic disease from an early age until the day she took her last breath. That wasn't all, she was also hit by a viral infection last June and having said that, she had to go countless surgeries, in and out of the hospital. We had this friendship bonded, partly because our birthday was one day apart. Losing her is such a waste, she was being nice to everyone, genuine and treated people with pure sincerity. How many people have you ever met like this. We crapped a lot, and I remembered many people used to tease her with Kyoto or something like that.
It was Heng Yap who was in coma before this and passed away, and now it's her. How fragile life is if one wonder. It's just too fragile. One minute you are here, the next minute you can't guarantee you are still gonna be here. Life is so unfair. Nice people always go first, and the bad ones stay longer. How tragical is this. I am in total disbelief, it seems that it was just yesterday we were in KDU cafeteria doing our assignments off together, crapping in the middle, and talking on the phone the next minute, but who knows, today, right now, I can't believe my eyes after reading that email that she isn't longer here. It feels so dubious and vague, but no, it's a matter of fact, that she had passed away and she is no longer here, and me, is unable to see her again, anymore, and it will just be the past and anything ... but the past. I regretted for not being to meet her before her passings. We said once, that we will meet each other after she moved house. Days, weeks, months and year passed and we have yet to meet and right now, chances are no longer here with me. It's just a dream to meet her.
She was part of my life, she had once left a big path in my heart and I will never ever forget her. Though she is very small size, but she had left a big mark there and can never be erased. I guess, it's too late to say and do anything, but if she ever wonders, yes ... I miss ya. We were together 2 years, and we had gone through a lot together, and guess what ... we had spent 4 hours on the phone before. No joke, 4 hours yes. All the ups and down, thick and thin. What can I say now, absolutely nothing. I didn't even know she was hit with the viral infection, and even when I asked her how's life treating her, she never mentioned one bit about it. Why didn't she. I know she didn't want anyone to worry .. but ... WHY.
In a matter of fact, I am actually too numb to type this out even. I am just as startled as when I just heard it. Slowly and gradually, I am accepting it. I am just grateful that I met her, that she had once shared her life with me, that we were just ... friends. We had lost a good person.
Seeing her going through under so many injections, all the time, I felt sorry and I felt she was really strong when she was still alive. All her life, and being so small size, she could withstand it until at the age of 23. She really had the determination, and I respect her for that, and I really meant it. It isn't easy, perhaps, if it was me, I would have given up hope on life. But, she always see hope and faith. For us, we have no mental strength to go to work and all, and people like her has to worry, whether she could go on living the next day, and she wonders if she can make it just for another day. It was such a daily worry for her. And .. why even we complaining. She told me before how worry she was before. Doctor told her once she could live until only for a few years from the time I know her, and she exceeded the doctor's estimation. Bravo! I am sure everyone's proud of her, it's her achievement. At least, she had seen the world, she grew up in Japan before, Turkey, England and Malaysia of course. I guess all her dreams came true, she even finished her degree in Leeds and everything else was accomplished. She told me she was afraid to be close to people, as she knows one day, she will just be gone, just like that and I had told her, at least, you were part of them before, and the most important is to enjoy your life while you can. She had accomplished her dream and even having that disease all along, and need constant treatment, she managed to go over to Leeds, all by herself. Her energy drive was so strong that people should learn from her in my very honest opinion. It's a guidance, a life guidance that should be shared.
This picture is ought not to be laughed at, "Baby" we miss you loads, that's what I call her, hope you are now in a better place, free from torments, tortures, injections and worries and hope you are much happier in a better place :)
KDU Dip 7 Zoo miss you ... and I meant, we really do miss you
Beschriften:
c'est la vie,
health n wellness,
Schule,
verschwunden
Sunday, November 23, 2008
Oriental Nite Part 3
And ... right after the performance, it's like in-a-matter-of-fact kinda thing that we will be the number one for this year again though not everyone did the performance yet. FO was the third to perform only, so there was actually a long way to go. But, in our heart, we are the winner already and I know this is so not right to do, that we should just see sit and listen quietly instead of syiok sendiri haha .. but yea right after that we were snapping pics outside the ballroom
This is Mei Lee ... the wrong channel hiao po hehe
We call the one in the middle as the sick dancer because she was really sick that day and guess what ... she was actually on MC that day ... but she came to perform ahha ... as per order from the manager haha
While this is my senior .. :D also one of the committee members to organize this whole event
Fufu ... and omg ... he looks so macho! haha ... but something's contrasting, we are not allowed to eat and buy and order any McD's when we work nightshift with him as it is something like a curse to him, as he ordered twice with us on 2 consecutive nights and his report all delayed, everything was interferred lolz darn funny
This is called ... Bobo "Gigolo" Zha Bo ... don't you think this name is uberly cool haha
This is Mei Lee ... the wrong channel hiao po hehe
We call the one in the middle as the sick dancer because she was really sick that day and guess what ... she was actually on MC that day ... but she came to perform ahha ... as per order from the manager haha
While this is my senior .. :D also one of the committee members to organize this whole event
Fufu ... and omg ... he looks so macho! haha ... but something's contrasting, we are not allowed to eat and buy and order any McD's when we work nightshift with him as it is something like a curse to him, as he ordered twice with us on 2 consecutive nights and his report all delayed, everything was interferred lolz darn funny
This is called ... Bobo "Gigolo" Zha Bo ... don't you think this name is uberly cool haha
Beschriften:
Arbeit o Internship,
Beauty n Mode,
Bilder,
Chinois
Thursday, November 20, 2008
The happiness
I'm off for the next 3 days, ask me out ask me out!!
I have been observing people these couple of days lately. Well, not these couple of days, but all along I do of course and having conversation with people made me realized more about it.
What is the foundation of being happy. How do you define happiness. Is happiness that easy to be fulfilled. Does it come from other people. Or that your happiness can be achieved from your inner-self. Think. Contemplate. Be thoughtful. Perhaps, it's about satisfaction and it is a fact that people are never satisfied with what they have and they are always wanting more once a particular so-called dream or target is achieved. Probably one should expect less things in life, and wouldn't be so worked out chasing that dream. However again, we need to have dreams in life lolz.
Frankly speaking, from a personal point of view, happiness or felicity does not have anything to do with others, but your inner-self. True happiness only lies within you, and only you, without wasting time and effort to search for happiness with the involvement externally. Reach out and share. It is also an inner state of your own well being.
For some reasons, certain people are being happy when others like them. I'm not sure how to put it, perhaps they are lack of assurance, they NEED love. I guess they are people who really cares about how people think of them. They need people to like them. Once people dislike them, they will do anything to make that person like them, or at least convince, try to. Is that what happiness is all about people? Reflect. If that is how you define happiness, I shall tell you, YOU HAVE NO LIFE.
This is principles. One shouldn't be overly concern on why people dislike you, why people hate you, and so on. One should just shove it and thrust it away, for, it's not the end of the world. Why bother so much. Most important ... you know what you are doing, and as long as you are happy, then why bother. Hold to your own beliefs, and never change. At times, one shouldn't care too much on people's perception on your goodself, rather, as long as you don't go against your conscious, it will be cool. The substance of this all is ... it all boils down to popularity and fame. If you have that in mind, and if what you want outta life is to be famous and popular among people, when you don't need to be, then I guess ... I shall say ... Bless You!
Don't give a dang about what people has to say. In the end of the day, you are the one feeling it, you are the one living your life, not them. If their words can bring you down, you are not worth to be here in the first place. Every individual deserve to be respected in a certain level and if one bit can bring you down, the level of respect of people towards you go down as well. So, do not permit them into you, do not permit their bitter words into your brain, for, their purpose is to bring you down. Therefore, if they succeed bringing you down, who is the one feeling happy. Them and not you. Stay strong, stay firm. You are worth more than that on this earth.
We have to admit we have evil souls in this world, more than the good souls, so beware and just be happy, be truly happy from an inner state of mind, and not because of others. People like thse are not worth to be known, they can be thrown into the rubbish bin and the savage, for, throwing them there is an understatement all together.
I have been observing people these couple of days lately. Well, not these couple of days, but all along I do of course and having conversation with people made me realized more about it.
What is the foundation of being happy. How do you define happiness. Is happiness that easy to be fulfilled. Does it come from other people. Or that your happiness can be achieved from your inner-self. Think. Contemplate. Be thoughtful. Perhaps, it's about satisfaction and it is a fact that people are never satisfied with what they have and they are always wanting more once a particular so-called dream or target is achieved. Probably one should expect less things in life, and wouldn't be so worked out chasing that dream. However again, we need to have dreams in life lolz.
Frankly speaking, from a personal point of view, happiness or felicity does not have anything to do with others, but your inner-self. True happiness only lies within you, and only you, without wasting time and effort to search for happiness with the involvement externally. Reach out and share. It is also an inner state of your own well being.
For some reasons, certain people are being happy when others like them. I'm not sure how to put it, perhaps they are lack of assurance, they NEED love. I guess they are people who really cares about how people think of them. They need people to like them. Once people dislike them, they will do anything to make that person like them, or at least convince, try to. Is that what happiness is all about people? Reflect. If that is how you define happiness, I shall tell you, YOU HAVE NO LIFE.
This is principles. One shouldn't be overly concern on why people dislike you, why people hate you, and so on. One should just shove it and thrust it away, for, it's not the end of the world. Why bother so much. Most important ... you know what you are doing, and as long as you are happy, then why bother. Hold to your own beliefs, and never change. At times, one shouldn't care too much on people's perception on your goodself, rather, as long as you don't go against your conscious, it will be cool. The substance of this all is ... it all boils down to popularity and fame. If you have that in mind, and if what you want outta life is to be famous and popular among people, when you don't need to be, then I guess ... I shall say ... Bless You!
Don't give a dang about what people has to say. In the end of the day, you are the one feeling it, you are the one living your life, not them. If their words can bring you down, you are not worth to be here in the first place. Every individual deserve to be respected in a certain level and if one bit can bring you down, the level of respect of people towards you go down as well. So, do not permit them into you, do not permit their bitter words into your brain, for, their purpose is to bring you down. Therefore, if they succeed bringing you down, who is the one feeling happy. Them and not you. Stay strong, stay firm. You are worth more than that on this earth.
We have to admit we have evil souls in this world, more than the good souls, so beware and just be happy, be truly happy from an inner state of mind, and not because of others. People like thse are not worth to be known, they can be thrown into the rubbish bin and the savage, for, throwing them there is an understatement all together.
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
Showdown of the Champions in Bukit Jalil - Roger Federer!
The showdown of the champions that was held recently in Kuala Lumpur ... precisely in Bukit Jalil, fetaure 4 top tennis players from 2 eras. 4 tennis legends in town! Can you believe it? Kill 2 birds with one stone that's what we call it. We have tennis aces in town, just yesterday in a matter of fact, Bjorn Borg, John McEnroe, James Blake and definitely Roger Federer
There were interview sessions, authograph sessions ... and I was just oh-so-uberly-excited. I know I sounded like some high school kid anticipating some concert thingy, but man I tell you, this feels even better than going to a concert okay! Thousand turned up in KLCC for the authograph session with Federer. One of my colleague went for it but gave up in the end haha.
Do you know how I rate a guy hawt? Do you know what is a hawt guy to me? Refer below
YESSS!!! It's Roger Federer! How often you hear me saying a guy is hawt! Never okay, alright maybe there are times, but ... it's damn rare so ... for me to say he is damn HAWT, it's really something. He looks damn good in real life, way much better than in pictures considering he already looks damn good in pictures. No, I did not go to KLCC to meet him, you must be joking, I can't bear those crowd. In fact, I saw him twice, once was yesterday and today was the second. He departed KL today though, in the morning boo... :( I purposely waited for him before going home, just to take a glimpse of him, and he made my day!! Like seriousllyyyyy ... damn down-to-earth damn cool. My gawd! He was like what 5 foot away from me as I was just standing so near to the door lolz. Today, before he departed ... I was wanting to see him so badly and I couldn't concentrate on my work but to keep looking at the center of the lobby and when finally I got the chance to get near to him as my colleague can see I was damn crazy over him asked me to follow him to get him to sign the bill, I chickend out after seeing the superbly gigantic bodyguard though I was kinda checking him, the bodyguard, in the day before lolz. But but ... there were 4 of them so nvm ... sigh what a disturbance they are. He was wearing his baseball cap the day before, I was basically nosebleeding all the way. I don't mind lacking of blood lolz. I saw Bjorn Borg twice too, and he was like 2 foot away from me, I was on the floor and he stopped on that level and I never did realize it until I saw his bodyguard :D then I'm like ... my gawd .. that's Borg!
Honestly speaking, I wasn't exposed to tennis before. I started watching tennis since Hewitt days and after awhile I didn't have that much of an interest in tennis. It died down, it faded off, until here comes Federer. Then, I started watching tennis and I was serious, I tried to understand the game and I just love the way he plays, and I started liking tennis, all because of him. OMG!!! I know I have said this so many times, but he is damn HAWT! He is gifted I tell you he really is! He can speak English, German, Swiss German, French some Swedish and Italian as well, oh mein gott!! Und und und ... his residence is in Oberwil and it was just one hour plus travelling time to his place from Luzern!! Where is Luzern? Er ... my school before I graduated lolz. 13 grand slam single titles and had held on to the World Ranking No 1 for 237 consecutive weeks ... if I'm not mistaken ... impressive!
In the end of the day, I got something worth more than a million bucks, maybe not to you, but to me yes definitely it is. I did really something stupid haha .. and I will not say, it's between me and Dede ... coz it's so damn super paiseh to reveal it haha.
The one zillion signature! I know it's not a perfect place but it's perfect for me HAHA.
My dream came true! Before I met him, I was so darn depressed until I said ... so near YET so far ... sounds so jiwang haha but no, ber-drama only lolz
Grueezi und Auf Wiedersehen ... ich hoffe!
There were interview sessions, authograph sessions ... and I was just oh-so-uberly-excited. I know I sounded like some high school kid anticipating some concert thingy, but man I tell you, this feels even better than going to a concert okay! Thousand turned up in KLCC for the authograph session with Federer. One of my colleague went for it but gave up in the end haha.
Do you know how I rate a guy hawt? Do you know what is a hawt guy to me? Refer below
YESSS!!! It's Roger Federer! How often you hear me saying a guy is hawt! Never okay, alright maybe there are times, but ... it's damn rare so ... for me to say he is damn HAWT, it's really something. He looks damn good in real life, way much better than in pictures considering he already looks damn good in pictures. No, I did not go to KLCC to meet him, you must be joking, I can't bear those crowd. In fact, I saw him twice, once was yesterday and today was the second. He departed KL today though, in the morning boo... :( I purposely waited for him before going home, just to take a glimpse of him, and he made my day!! Like seriousllyyyyy ... damn down-to-earth damn cool. My gawd! He was like what 5 foot away from me as I was just standing so near to the door lolz. Today, before he departed ... I was wanting to see him so badly and I couldn't concentrate on my work but to keep looking at the center of the lobby and when finally I got the chance to get near to him as my colleague can see I was damn crazy over him asked me to follow him to get him to sign the bill, I chickend out after seeing the superbly gigantic bodyguard though I was kinda checking him, the bodyguard, in the day before lolz. But but ... there were 4 of them so nvm ... sigh what a disturbance they are. He was wearing his baseball cap the day before, I was basically nosebleeding all the way. I don't mind lacking of blood lolz. I saw Bjorn Borg twice too, and he was like 2 foot away from me, I was on the floor and he stopped on that level and I never did realize it until I saw his bodyguard :D then I'm like ... my gawd .. that's Borg!
Honestly speaking, I wasn't exposed to tennis before. I started watching tennis since Hewitt days and after awhile I didn't have that much of an interest in tennis. It died down, it faded off, until here comes Federer. Then, I started watching tennis and I was serious, I tried to understand the game and I just love the way he plays, and I started liking tennis, all because of him. OMG!!! I know I have said this so many times, but he is damn HAWT! He is gifted I tell you he really is! He can speak English, German, Swiss German, French some Swedish and Italian as well, oh mein gott!! Und und und ... his residence is in Oberwil and it was just one hour plus travelling time to his place from Luzern!! Where is Luzern? Er ... my school before I graduated lolz. 13 grand slam single titles and had held on to the World Ranking No 1 for 237 consecutive weeks ... if I'm not mistaken ... impressive!
In the end of the day, I got something worth more than a million bucks, maybe not to you, but to me yes definitely it is. I did really something stupid haha .. and I will not say, it's between me and Dede ... coz it's so damn super paiseh to reveal it haha.
The one zillion signature! I know it's not a perfect place but it's perfect for me HAHA.
My dream came true! Before I met him, I was so darn depressed until I said ... so near YET so far ... sounds so jiwang haha but no, ber-drama only lolz
Grueezi und Auf Wiedersehen ... ich hoffe!
Beschriften:
Auf wiedersehen und Grüezi,
events n happenings,
Kastanienbaum n Luzern,
Malaysian,
Schweiz,
sports
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