Tuesday, May 4, 2010

I will not bow

Time flies. This month, May, has been a year since that scheisse stuff happened. And I am not regretting a single thing, and I am not looking back to say "ah I wish we could be better". Instead, I shall say "I regretted all these did not happen earlier."

Sometimes, I felt, we should not have met. I know you're just someone I met long ago. People had been saying good things about you, like really good things, not to the extreme, but compared to what I thought about you, it's extremely good. Haha. Well, you might say, you're matured, being the hero, and whatever shit you are good at, but all these are just plain rubbish. I used to believe until bad things decided to turn against me. How good are you is for the individual to see for themselves. Well, what can I expect from a shallow guy? Right? Absolutely nothing.

You might be good to people because of some stuff, but definitely not me. I knew that from the very beginning, right from the beginning, but again, people always say, give the benefit of the doubt to people, every human beings deserve a chance to prove themselves. Well, you just proved I'm right from the beginning, didn't you? You know what? It gave me a sense of relief in a matter of fact, saying that you're such a jerk like how I thought of you. I was not being distrusting of you, but trust is a very very vital word. I was right anyway, I should not have trusted you. Ah Thank God, I have never really trusted you to begin with.

After all, I have seen you bitching a lot about others whom you called friends in front. That shows how you treat friends. I feel a sense of satisfaction to know my instincts and my gut feelings were right, really right. You can do it to one person, you can do it to anyone else in the world, and it could be me :)

Anyways, I shall celebrate the one year anniversary we finally ended. Honestly, I am relief and happy. Time really does fly. Goodbye. Thank You for thinking I am a hazard to your life, because I am indeed one. HAHA. I will not bow down to you and say I'm sorry. I will not bow down to you to allow you to say anything and do anything to me. You think? Please pray as hard as you can because that will not happen. Instead, I will go rebel against you, all the way, until I die, I will not bow down. Long live me! XD

3 comments:

schnecke said...

we gave them and ourself an oppotunity to know each other, without doubt but some ppl just have to prove that the majority is correct. sometimes i wonder are we actually finding fault by giving a chance for them to 'prove' themself or should we just hop in the bandwagon and follow the majority right frm the start?

The Pondering Introvert said...
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The Pondering Introvert said...

my answer is I find satisfaction and a sense of relief after i know the truth, the truth that people don't expect, but i do because they prove I'm right, they prove my instincts are correct about them, that they are just some scum ;)