The Pain That Stayed

This year has just been bad in terms of health. It was actually brought from last year.

Last year, it was just cough all the way and it became so annoying. It was then brought forward to this year and became even more irritating. I was in and out of clinic, and that isn't fun at all.

I am so sick of the whole idea of being sick. So sick of medicines, so sick of drugs, so sick to just say that I'm sick. Just that whole thing. You know that it isn't right anymore when people keep on telling you that each time they talk to you, you're sick.

It's just 3 days apart and this is my second visit to a clinic. Oh my gawd, please just help me. This isn't at all fun nor funny. I was in pain for 4 days. For 4 freaking days I was in pain, I couldn't sleep and I suffered tremendously while at work. I hope the medicine is going to work for me this time. I do not intend to go on MC or anything at all. I refuse!

I think my whole body system is screwed up. What's the point for minimizing my alcohol intake? What's the whole freaking point when I feel even worse than when I was consuming it frequently?