Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Farewell 3 Part 2

Continue from the previous one. I have been procrastinating to the max. It has been 4 months since I left and I am still not done with the farewell posts. Haha.

The GRO cum GC. He left right after us and is now in a nearby place. Well, he's getting married this Sat. OMO! So young -_-

From SCGRO to FO Trainer and now, also left already haha

Reception Manager

I love money money money. Ah ... think about those days whereby each of us hold such a big amount of cash.

I don't know why we gotta squeeze into this small corner haha

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

OMO?!

Could You be Jang Keun Suk's girl?



My Result: You're his Wife!
OMO...There he goes walking down the aisle with you! awwww...He will truly cherish the person who he ties the knot with...

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The Path

Ahh ... after browsing away in FB, I found a shocking news, that an ex-classmate is now a mother of TWO. o.O OMO. Ever since she got back in 2006, she got married and gave birth to two kids. Time flies, from a single student, to a mother of two. Surprise surprise. Well, to tell you the truth, it isn't only her, but many others who walked the same path as her, settle down. Need not say those from high school, many of them are already married, and it's not only this year, but it started off many years back, and more and more are getting married. Even if they are not married, they are already in those stable relationships, except the guys. haha. College, Thank God, many are not married yet, but then again, many are not even here to begin with. Ex-colleagues, well, I can only say only minorities are unattached. When I was still there, I was one of the three who are unattached. Others are all attached. Haha. Perhaps, I should compare with those my age. Those my age, many had settled down. HOHO. Bingo! Can I be a monk instead? I don't even feel like going to that path that everyone is going to.

Honestly, many girls that I know do NOT believe in marriage anymore. Why go through the hassle of getting married? And, every year, you gotta give out even more money :P When you're not married, you don't have to, and you can save more :P Even those who are unattached and my age, is already looking for er, a husband material? LOL. But, maybe, I'm still living like I did when I was 21. haha. Nothing change. Many are afraid, many are paranoid, and just a handful still believe, while me, I am just happy the way things are at the moment, I don't plan to go down the path people expect me to, at least not at this very moment. Best part is, the ones close to me are unattached. HAHAHA ... :P

Thursday, June 24, 2010

Farewell 3 Part 1

It was the last ever time we stepped our foot into the back-of-the-house of the hotel we were engaged to for the last 2.5 years. In comparison with many of our ex-colleagues, 2.5 years was nothing. In comparison also with many of the ones who had left before us, we were something. However it might be, it's time to move on to something new. At one hand, I wish I could have stayed. At another hand, I am glad I made that decision. The frequent changed in shift had made my health deteriorated. I became so much weaker. I always did not feel good. I felt I was floating instead of walking. Though that might sound terrible, I loved my job. I really do.

So, this is our last cake before we walked out from the door for the last ever time. Yes, they treated us not only as twins, they treated us like one body. If somebody tells one of us something, they expect the message to be conveyed to the other instantly.

The sketch book that we had. And also, we got a pen, with our name engraved on it. Cool, no? Ah, they can be the sweetest ever thing, but also, the worst ever at times. :P

The Front Office team. This is not even one quarter of the team. This is the family we went happy hours with, we cried with, we laughed with. All kinds of emotions, you see it, you feel it. They are the ones who are there for you, not your friends from outside because only these bunch of people understood your situation perfectly. One day, we might argue or get upset over a certain issue, the next minute, we are good.

Duty Manager. When I first joined, she was not even married yet, she just had a bf then. The day I left, she was pregnant with her 2nd child already. Can you see how time flies?

Gonna get married in October finally.

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

We can make it - Jang Geun Suk & Wee Band



LYRIC

근석>>
geunsuk>>
오늘 하루가 힘들진 않았니
oneul haruga himdeuljin anhanni
넌 웃고 있지만 쓴 웃음을 보였지만
neon utgo itjiman sseun useumeul boyeotjiman

팀>>
tim>>
혹시라도 힘들었었다면
hoksirado himdeureosseotdamyeon
조금 더 가까이 내 곁에 다가와 줄래
jogeum deo gakkai nae gyeote dagawa jullae

호영>>
hoyeong>>
내 손을 잡아봐 내 눈을 바라봐
nae soneul jababwa nae nuneul barabwa
니 곁에는 내가 있어
ni gyeoteneun naega isseo
내 맘을 느껴봐 난 너를 사랑해
nae mameul neukkyeobwa nan neoreul saranghae
언제라도 널 지켜줄께
eonjerado neol jikyeojulkke

근석>>
geunsuk>>
We We can make my friend
We We can make my friend
힘들고 지칠 땐 우리 함께 해
himdeulgo jichil ttaen uri hamkke hae

팀>>
tim>>
Oh We We can make my friend
Oh We We can make my friend
기억해 사랑해 니 곁에서
gieokhae saranghae ni gyeoteseo

근석>>
geunsuk>>
많이 외롭고 혼자만 있었니
manhi oeropgo honjaman isseonni
넌 지쳐있지만 눈물을 보였지만
neon jichyeoitjiman nunmureul boyeotjiman

팀>>
tim>>
한번만 더 니 주윌 돌아봐
hanbeonman deo ni juwil dorabwa
혼자는 아니야 니 모든걸 안아줄께
honjaneun aniya ni modeungeol anajulkke

호영>>
hoyeong>>
내 손을 잡아봐 내 눈을 바라봐
nae soneul jababwa nae nuneul barabwa
니 곁에는 내가 있어
ni gyeoteneun naega isseo
내 맘을 느껴봐 난 너를 사랑해
nae mameul neukkyeobwa nan neoreul saranghae
언제라도 널 지켜줄께
eonjerado neol jikyeojulkke

근석>>
geunsuk>>
We we can make my friend
We we can make my friend
아파도 슬퍼도 우리 함께 해
apado seulpeodo uri hamkke hae

팀>>
tim>>
Oh~ We We can make my friend
Oh~ We We can make my friend
잊지마 사랑해 니 곁에서
itjima saranghae ni gyeoteseo
워우워~
wouwo~

근석>>
geunsuk>>
울고 싶은 날엔 울어 너를 꼭 안아줄께
ulgo sipeun naren ureo neoreul kkok anajulkke

호영>>
hoyeong>>
그리고 다시 웃어줘 언제나 널 지켜줄께
geurigo dasi useojwo eonjena neol jikyeojulkke
예이예~
yeiye~

팀>>
tim>>
We We can make my friend
We We can make my friend
혼자선 울지마 함께 있을께
honjaseon uljima hamkke isseulkke

호영>>
hoyeong>>
Oh~ We We can make my friend
Oh~ We We can make my friend
우리들 약속해 사랑으로
urideul yaksokhae sarangeuro

다같이>>
dagachi>>
We We can make my friend
We We can make my friend
힘들고 지칠 땐 우리 함께 해
himdeulgo jichil ttaen uri hamkke hae
Oh~ We We can make my friend
Oh~ We We can make my friend
기억해 사랑해 니 곁에서
gieokhae saranghae ni gyeoteseo

We~~~
We~~~

English Translation:

Did a painful day
You laugh and laugh, but it seemed to write, but

Even if you’d be hard to
Can I approached closer by

Catch my hand and look at my eyes
I’m around you
Feel my heart, I love you
I’ll always protect you

We We can make my friend
Difficult terrain when we go together

Oh We We can make my friend
Remember, I love your side

Did a lot of lonely and alone
You looked tired, but no tears, but

One more twirl your juwil
It’s not alone, I’ll hug you all

Catch my hand and look at my eyes
I’m around you
Feel my heart, I love you
I’ll always protect you

We we can make my friend
Ache, we go together

Oh ~ We We can make my friend
Do not forget your side I love you
Wowoowo ~
wouwo ~

I’ll hug you, they say, you want to cry, cry
And again, I’ll protect you always
Yeyiye ~
yeiye ~

We We can make my friend
Do not cry I’ll be alone together

Oh ~ We We can make my friend
Our Promise to love you

We We can make my friend
Difficult terrain when we go together
Oh ~ We We can make my friend
Remember, I love your side

We ~ ~ ~
We ~ ~ ~

Credits to: http://meeramaruu.wordpress.com/2010/01/19/wee-band-jang-geun-suk-son-ho-young-tim-we-can-make-it-mvlink-downloadlyric/


This song is just so so awesome. More even so that JGS is inside, I melt. What a beautiful voice, totally mesmerizing. hehe. It's an addiction, I can't take my eyes off.

Saturday, June 19, 2010

When karma happens

It has only been almost 4 months since I left my previous job but the changes there has been over-shocking to the core.

The one, and really one news that got me jaw-dropped was about this girl that is gonna get married. I heard she got a bf, like only really recently she got a bf, and now that she's gonna get married? Wedding is not gonna be held next year, or end of this year, but ... will be in July. o.O Do you feel the sense of urgency? Ah that's right, she's pregnant. She dated 5 months, rushing into marriage with 3 months pregnant? OMO! With a commis boy. Not to say looking down on this dude, but he has a whole long list of history, not positive ones for sure.

So, in this case, people will ask, what makes her keep instead of aborting? You might then say, abortion is illegal, it's not right to abort an unborn. But, is she really that stupid? Do you wanna keep it and regret for the rest of your entire life, or abort it, for once and for all? This girl is also not naive at all, she had some scandals with a rich dude, and he buys her really expensive stuff eg LV, Guess and etc, all the time, until at one point, he does not go there to stay anymore. Something might have happened between them.

This is once in a lifetime kinda thing, so people will do step by step, slowly, one at a time, so that in the end of the day, things turn out perfectly. She does not look happy. She might have made him hold responsibility of that unborn, though not knowing who the father is. Just like a scapegoat. People are surprised with the guy she chose because she is really very materialistic and money minded and that she must end up with a rich man. I can foresee this marriage ends with disaster. I am not cursing, but let's face reality. Nothing happened in a right way.

She flirts with every single guy, to get benefits from them in the end of the day. She goes out with any guy who ask her out. I'm not bad for saying this but if you look at her intentions, you will then say she is nasty. I'm speaking the truth.

So, for her to be trapping herself in the no-future marriage, with an unborn child whom the father might not be the husband's, do you think she deserves everything? She might look innocent in front of people, but hey, looks are really very deceiving. She did all this out of stupidity. I have no further comments about her, but she's just PLAIN DUMB. Sorry to say, but she really is stupid to the core. Her mission failed - to be marrying a richman. Her smile, her friendliness are all fake. So, if she expects people to still treat her like princess, don't even think about it. Stop dreaming and take a good look at yourself first. People will definitely look at you very differently. Stop flirting and being so slutty, everything will be good. However, everything is way too late. I just can't imagine someone I know can be THAT disgusting and awful.

Anyone pity her? Not pity pity, but pity at her shallowness to handle things. Pity of her foolishness. Not on her life because life is in her hands. She never thought of consequences, and at this age, how can she be way so idiotic? Reality proved otherwise. What I really wanna do is not to pity her because people like her does not deserved to be pitied in any way. But, I just wanna LAUGH OUT LOUD. For someone who told the whole world she wants to marry a richman, and for the whole world to know she is so money-minded. How backward her mentality is? Well, what do you expect. She has practically zero friends when all these happened, just because the way she was and still are. The reason given because she has nobody to talk to. Well, everyone HAS a brain I believe. It's so absurd really. Her actions and her sins is unforgiving. It's all karma. For everything that she had done and used all those guys before, it hits it back on her now. We all know she will not end up with what she wanted, with her dreamy happy life, but we never thought that it all got it back at her THAT fast.

For, she is treated like G-O-D-D-E-S-S by many guys there, they are so disappointed and it's just how funny things work out sometimes. Believe in karma. Well, it all came from herself, and not anyone else in the world. There's nobody else to blame except herself. All these things happened, she ASKED for it. It's karma. Lesson in life - use your brain, don't be stupid.

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

Goodbye in 2 weeks

I don't feel happy of what I'm doing now. In a matter of fact, truth to be told, I feel suffocated, and that each passing moment, I am looking for the time I can say, goodbye.

Today is the history. I had experience of handing in letter just 4 months back. Now, I am doing yet again. Usually, I will withstand whatever obstacles are there, no matter how difficult and how much I gotta put on. This time, it's gonna be so different. In comparison with the past that I had gone through before, this is really nothing. Maybe, this is based on my own principles that I cannot accept how someone talks. I know by nature he's just being like that, but well, it's just me, I know I cannot accept people talking in such a way. I might as well leave now, and save people's time.

It's good for both worlds. Instead of getting myself so depressed over my job, I need to end this to regain my composure and my happiness. From the bottom of my heart, I am not happy of what I am doing, and where am I now. I need to end that as soon as possible. Anyone that I met, told me to leave. Since there are so many people against of what am I doing now, wasting my potential, I shall listen to them for once, and leave. I don't usually listen to people or take people's advise, because I am really that stubborn by nature. I will always do against people's will, and I just don't know why. Does it give me some sense of proof? Satisfaction? I don't know. I suffered at my previous job, but I was happy. In the initial stages, it was such a torment but in the end of the day, the people made me stay on. This time, I am not saying the people aren't good. But, they are not solid enough, not good enough reason for me to stay.

In two weeks time, I will leave for good. I am honestly looking for that day. I can see there are some forms of politics that should not even be happening. I sense, it's just either A or B dies, and the whole place will go haywire. It's all about power and authority. Obviously, it isn't as bad.

Let's countdown. I'm leaving soon. Let's just hope that nothing happens within these 2 weeks and so, I may leave in peace, without anymore bitterness or hated I used to have. I hope those feelings fade away.

Thursday, June 3, 2010

Toby, I love you

It has been quite awhile aye.

It has been one week now. One week ago, something tragic happened that will change my life forever. It is my boy, Toby. Toby left us, forever. How had life changed.

He is not coming back. He left us for good. It's really depressing, perhaps, I felt beyond depressed.

He is the only dog that entertained me. When I need an ear to listen, he's there for me. When I need somewhere to release my burden, he's there for me. When I'm down and I need somewhere to cry on, he's there for me. I just cannot believe, he's no longer here with me, he's no longer here to listen to me, he's no longer here to console me, he's no longer here to make me feel better.

He made me laugh when I'm sad. He made me smile when I'm down. He made me feel so loved when I'm all alone. We grew up together, and most importantly, he's there when I need him the most. He was there during my most crucial years. I just can't imagine without him.

I know this time will come. But, I am not prepared. I must learn to let go, I can't. I must learn to accept the fact, I still can't. I feel extremely lonely. Each time I'm in the compound, he automatically appears in my mind, thinking of how he used to make me laugh, thinking how I used to talked to him and he, was there listening and tried his best to make me feel better. And, he always did not fail to make me see the sunshine again.

I always feel very emotionally attached to all my dogs. However, this time, I feel most attached to. It's so deep I just can't accept it even after a week. On the day when he left us, I could not eat, I could not sleep, I could not work, I could not even drive. I felt so numb, so numb that I do not wanna do anything. I wanted to follow him badly.

One Friday few weeks ago when I was feeding him his dinner just like the usual Fridays, he was not eating. It's normal for dogs not to eat once in awhile. At that point of time, I knew something was really wrong, and it's not the usual he's sick and it will be okay the next day. I felt so wrong. My instincts is telling me something. It's telling me, this is not good news. We took him to the vet, and it's really bad news. He was diagnosed with cancer, weak heart (that's the reason of him panting away and difficulty in breathing), and worms in his ears. I see him, with that difficulty in breathing makes it so heartbreaking to see him in this condition and situation. As much as I want him to end his miserable life, at the same time, I cannot find myself to let him go.

One night, the day before he left us, something triggered me. Usually, I don't come down at 12 midnight to see my dogs. That night, something told me to come down and see him. At least to see him sleep. I just wanted to see him so badly. Who knows, the next day, everything ended, even though I wanted to just see him is really too late. That was my last sight of him.

I might still have April with me. But, the chemistry that we have, is not the same and never be the same as Toby. I feel much more attached with Toby.

Toby, rest in peace. I will always love you, and remember you as my lil boy, always. We will meet again some day. By now, you should have arrived in Heaven's door. Saranghae!