Do you feel safe anymore?

Over the years, being home, I have taken safety for granted. I took precautions, whenever I traveled, I had friends with me except when I flew solo. But, nothing too extreme because I felt safe (at least for the most part). 

For the last 2 and a half years in Seattle, from summer to the winter, especially post Covid, things have changed so much. I visited here 4 times before I moved here. I am aware of how things are in downtown because when I visit, I took the bus to wherever I wanted to go. 

There is a misconception that the homeless people wouldn't disturb random people, attack, or act aggressively. I knew that I am not an exception and who knows, something would happen. I came here in spring 2023 and how was I shocked when I saw the amount of homeless people. 

But, there was one incident that left me traumatized and put my guards really high up when I see someone walking on the road. Because, that person might be dangerous. That one day came when all I wanted to do was to take the bus to my gym. I walked to the bus stop and I heard someone yelling how someone wanted to murder him. Just a glance, you know he's no longer sane. It's a pity, but my safety was the utmost priority at that point. He has already seen me at that time. He had a really big and solid stick with him and before I could think about anything, he came running towards me, wanted to strike me with that stick. And, he did. But, because I anticipated that, I ran as fast as I could if I did not wanna die. My mind was clouded if I would even make it out alive. All these happened in a public place, broad day light. 

Are people not safe to take public transport anymore? I feel that my already traumatized view on the world has been damaged even more now. The only damage control and mitigation plan I could really do now is to take pepper spray with me and try to avoid infamous places. ;)

Still, a beautiful city despite the walking dead vibe we get sometimes. 

It's about 'me'

I have met way more people in the past. As I got older, my circle is getting smaller and smaller and eventually, I think it will all fizzle off. Have you ever come across someone who talks all about themselves and nothing else? I have, more than I would like to in both genders.

I am currently watching Later Daters, it is about a show of people between the ages of 56 and 70, have been single for awhile and would like to get back into the dating world but do not how to. Some of them have been single for 15 years, so it's been a long time. How do people even date anymore?

I have been on dating app before, have been around people from my circle too. There are people out there who just love to talk about themselves, how great they are, the world revolve around them. There was this lady who did not ask any question during the date, so by the end of it, she does not know anything about her date. That's her coping mechanism when she is nervous. Well, I can understand at a certain point people act this way, but not all the time.

There are people who act like that because they suffer from insecurities, or they have some sort of inferiority complex. Looking back at the friendships I had, there are those who have gone wrong due to character, or some were just prioritization. I knew this one guy who had to boost himself, from how much he earned, right until his travels. They are either lack of confidence, they have no value that they have to resort in doing this, or they have underlying problems. But, that isn't my concern.

I had some female friendships too, who I knew a lot about them but they do not know much about me. All because I kept asking the questions, and they happily talked about themselves, including things that are supposed to be private and personal.

Perhaps, regardless the stage they are in, whether in the 30s or 40s, they had enough time to know themselves better and to know how to navigate through life. However, knowing the Millennial generation being like this, it is just sad to know they are lack of self-awareness and the general awareness. It is a crucial part of self-discovery to reflect of what happened, what went wrong and what can be done better. That is how we improve as human beings. Throwing all your emotions to your friends isn't the greatest idea, knowing that they are not a therapist, yet them trying to be a good friend to listen to your problem, yet taking advantage of doing it all the time, isn't the best thing one can do.

We are different, but when I have a problem, I do not throw this burden on a friend to listen to me all the time. I process the problems and feelings on my own, whether in my own thoughts, or by written expressions. It is vital for anyone to find their own ways to express, without burdening much on others. Unless, you engaged a therapist, then sure, do all you have to do because that's their profession. Listening to problems everyday would eventually bring negativity to you. We are surrounded with energy, so it is pivotal to remain positive energy around you. Having the negative vibe will just drown you one day. That's what I learned, and today, we are no longer friends because we have different belief systems, different values, and I realized, I was drowning. I should not carry a burden that is not supposed to be mine.

Edited Pictures

I've heard a story from a friend recently, whereby her friend has been active on Tinder, okc and the apps that are similar to that.

Let's get real. Those apps are very physical based. People don't look at your behavior, your attitude, your personality in the first glance. What they look at? Your picture, whatever you decide to show e.g. your face and etc.

Of course, you can photoshop your pictures to be an entirely different person. You can be the bomb in tinder or what not. To be the hot, gorgeous person there. But, how much can you hide? It's only so much.

Then, those guys started asking her out. This is a context of a girl. She found it weird that every guy disappear after the meet up session. The problem lies in her for sure. She photoshopped her picture until her friend could not tell that it's her. From the face to the legs, meaning, improved her skin texture, she became much fairer, looked much younger, she became taller, slimmer and everything else.

When you finally meet a person, people generally will be shocked. Reason, they feel cheated. When they feel cheated, they disappear from your sight. Stop being weird, put up your own pictures without any edit and things will get better. Secondly, don't be desperate. Don't meet every Tom, Dick and Harry. If you choose to do, then don't  blame others for having such weird behavior.

Maybe, these kind of girls should be prohibited from these applications. Instead, the best is to actually go for an arranged marriage and lock her in the house. But again, she's so weird. Her aim is to find anyone as long as she has someone to get married with. Regardless. She even tried finding among her own friends and attempted til the point that the guys are running away from her. OMG? Why are there such human I wonder.

The End

At this age, our friends will have their own partners, they get upgraded, they change status, they have different priorities. That's totally fine and normal.

Then, you have someone, who vanished from thin air when they get a bf/gf. Okay, I'll give the honeymoon period of 6 months. Non-contactable of 6 months is actually non-acceptable but I'll try to be understanding, the max is 6 months. That means, not a meet up, no calls, no messages, nothing.

They just, disappear. When they were weak and down, people were there to pick them up. If you have been talking to someone, or to some people, I think it's only right if you tell them that you got someone and you will be seeing less of them. As friends, I'm sure they understand. But, without a word when you have been talking to each other every single day? That shows how much respect you have for your friends.

After a year, it is safe to conclude that this person will not be reaching out to you anymore, ever. It's best to just remove this person from your life because that's what they asked. We, as human beings, just reciprocate what they have done. It's okay, karma won't get back to you. Instead, it will be to that person who is unappreciative for what you had done. People love taking others for granted. That includes, people, who may or may not be your friend. That's how people are these days.

Sometimes, you will just wish you weren't there when they were down. *pats back* you did a great job. Don't worry about that. There are so many who are appreciative *proud smile* It's all good and in the end, it's worth it. Those that don't, when you fall again, that's because you deserve it. You'll suffer much more than how you did. haha.

Socially Awkward

There are socially awkward people around. Or even, ourselves, are sometimes caught in this situation too.

Generally, if majority of the time, one feels that way, then most probably they are. I don't know how they feel, or should I say, if people see you as one, and majority of them do, then most probably you are. Some are more serious, and some not so.

We tend to get awkward in some social settings, but that doesn't mean you are a socially awkward person in general terms. Maybe, it's just for that. But, if you are consistently feeling that way all the time, then it's time to get yourself checked.

I have come across one, that I am very much convinced he falls into this category. He comes out as having a weird behavior.

I find this person so weird. With the same type of conversation, one is socially awkward and one is not, it's so difficult to carry on a conversation with the socially awkward person. It's really very difficult, to not get annoyed. Maybe, it's his ways of talking or having a conversation but it's not something acceptable to me.

This person would ask me a question, after he has the response, he will go on and on about explaining the answer you gave. Really, what's the point? Then, why not, ask the question, answer it on behalf, and then explain it too in 10 or 30 minutes. It leaves that other party speechless. The outcome? They probably will just wanna walk out.

Maybe, they should know how to structure their sentences, the questions to ask, so basically the topic of conversations. There's no conversation flow, and it's certain it doesn't flow naturally at all.

If someone tells you that they don't have time to text you or reply you and they only reply important messages, that is sufficient to know the person doesn't want to be communicating with you any longer. If that person seldom responds to your text messages and all are 1-2 worded replies, what does it say? What took you so long? Most importantly, there's no connection. For a normal person, they would have stopped and left. Sometimes, it's entertaining, yet irritating.

First of all, they should know and understand social norms. That's the first. Maybe, self help books and guides may or may not be helpful. I don't know. It's absurd. Take that one step forward, to understand.

Settle Down

For some reason, after so many years, I still remember what this woman asked me back then, 7-8 years ago. It's not something important but my brain works that way. It remembers every single little detailed thing that's not important. It just came to my mind today, God knows why.

See, we were working in an industry that doesn't give us any social life except for an intoxicated social life, or mamak. Choose one. Back then, partying is how it goes. We don't mamak. It was boring to mamak. Being young, bored, and no daylife, we frequent clubs and bars.

This woman, whom I wasn't close, and still not, asked me if my bf knows I club so often. I just hate it when people say things like that, like as if I have to follow the norm to have a bf like her. C'mon, boring much? It sure was. I asked her what made her think I had one? Her reaction was way too dramatic, "what?! You don't have." Hello, it's not a crime and why must I have one. Irritating.

She told me that I should think of settling down already to have a stable life. OMFG. You gotta be kidding me. I was 23-24. I told her that I don't wanna lead a boring life like her.

She got married months after that, and it amazed me that not long after she got married, heard stories of her cheating on her husband. Ah, this is really amusing. Get married and cheat. So, that's the whole point of getting married I see. It's not for me to say a word, but yeah woman, great advice..

Right after she left, I didn't see, heard about, or talk about her anymore. Well, let's just say, the interest isn't there to know about her amusing life or things that she said.

Late and forever late

I'm not sure if people are thoughtless these days, or they are just lack of senses.

Sure, humans make mistakes. I just don't get it because only people from here make this mistake. This in particular, being punctual.

There are people, that few individuals, and it's always them that are late. Late, late, late and late. It comes to the point where I don't know if I should brush if off or to really address the issue. Again, it's not that I have not. I have done so many times over the last 10 years. What else can I do? Nothing I know. What can I change? I know there is, which is, screw them and tell them that they should just stay where they are and not make it a point to meet up, ever again. That irritates me so much.

I'm not sure if it has something to do with my trainings, my upbringing or other misc stuff. Apparently, I am one in the circle that behaves this way, that highlights punctuality to the max. I must reiterate this, I despise people being late. SO MUCH. I don't get it too, why can't people be on time.

After being late, they have a million excuses why they're late. Traffic jam, dunno whose car breaks down, buy breakfast for someone, this, that and whatever. I mean common, I am not born yesterday. I do not accept stupid reason like that. So, they blame everything out there that can be blamed. Again, do I accept it? Obviously not. You can tell me your neighbor's insurance agent's uncle's far distant relative and what other ancestor stories. I don't buy it, and in particular if I know you long enough, I will jot every single thing down, in my brain. AND .... I remember it. I must say, when it comes to stuff like that, I have BRILLIANT memory.

Then, with them already being late, they don't inform. My lifespan is getting shorter each day. Since when that being late for one hour is acceptable, that it's okay, that people can just let it go because I can't. There's a limit in everything. If you do it all the freaking time, or at most times, please, just shut up. The moment you open your mouth, you seem even more stupid than you already are. Stop explaining, stop blaming. Just admit, and move on.

I am not someone that is patient enough to be waiting for you an entire day and yet still smile to you. Not over my dead body, really.

My plan now is, after 2 months, I will probably dismiss it and tell you, stay out of the way, do whatever you want because I do not need you to be here. I have my time meant for people who respect time, and not those who don't like you.

It's such an easy thing, yet so difficult for some. Or probably impossible. One thing I've learnt, no matter how close you are to me, if you are not punctual, prepare yourself. It might not happen this year, but I'm sure going to put it as the NY's resolution end of this year.

I do not wanna be a broken recorder, to tell people simple stuff like that. You don't even need people telling you common sense like this. So, if you think you're busy, so am I. Just because I know how to juggle my time, that doesn't make you taking advantage of my precious time. Thank you for reading.

The Eyes

People hate others for no apparent reason. At times, they don't reflect their own actions if the blame is on oneself.

What I really mean is, the word, hate. There's a fine line between hate and dislike if one can't differentiate.

Of course, we as humans, we can't please everyone. The same goes to yourself, not everyone can please you. If you don't get along, move on, and be professional if it's work related. Otherwise, be courteous for social matters. At times, you hold grudge, vengeance and what not. Nobody is an angel or a saint. Considering the world is already cruel and stressful, by putting all these unnecessary stuff in, is that really worth the stress? I do understand that when you have many common friends, it's really difficult to break a friendship. If that needs to be done, then it just has to be done. It's not that I am breaking any of those friendship away anyway, this is just a justsaying statement.

Yeah, when people distance themselves from you, one two followed by three four, maybe, just maybe if you are humble enough, you should do some self-reflection on what have you done? Or what could you have done better in certain situations.

Glaring, staring, all of those are not needed. In particular, if you are doing so with the eyes full of hatred, nothing is going to change people's treatment on you. They are still going to continue distancing themselves. Hating people as easy as that? There's really nothing else I can really say except God bless you much. They know, how dangerous it is to talk to people like you. For me personally, I cannot talk to anyone I cannot trust.

As they say, the eyes are one of the utmost sense of a person's body as it reflects his soul. I can see his soul, that's full of hatred and bitterness. For sure, I am nobody to say anything. Having lived for more than 3 decades and still being so bitter on everyone, like, really? Does he need to be admitted to a rehab center? Haha.

Being rude is a crime, learn to say "Hello"

The longer I live, the worse people are. More uneducated and uncivilized they become. It come to a point there's no more humanity.

I have encountered this many years ago, probably 11 - 12 years ago. Certain things don't change. I was so irritated back then, and if the same happens now, I will just be the same, an equal irritation, if not worse.

There are some things that you don't have to be told. It's human's basic manners. If you hang out with that person, regardless how close you are with each other, you cannot leave being courteous aside.

Back then, it was a female, came to the car, sat like a queen, without a word of greeting. She does not know that I am not ali (driver). haha. I did what I do best.

Fast forward, same stuff happened. This time, a guy, came to the car, and didn't greet, not a word. Well, despite doing them a favor, it's only common you say hi. I am not expecting like a formal greeting, but hey, hi, what's up, is that so difficult to do?

The difference now and then is ... I got more pissed now. Why? Being 30s and not know etiquette? I do not tolerate, considering I am doing a favor already, not asking anything in return. The other difference now is, I had to teach this person what basic manners is. OMG ARE YOU SERIOUS DUDE? I gave him 5 secs, and he didn't say a word. Automatically, I exploded. HELLO ARE YOU DUMB? Therefore, I told him that when you enter someone's car, it's only polite and courteous that you greet that person that pick you up and do not be rude by just sitting like as if that person owes you. What I got as a reply? A sarcastic hello. I was on the verge of throwing him out from my car. But, patience pays off, right? I was brought up to be kind and nice. The reason I held on.

Then, thinking, he learned and it is instilled in his damn brain. Apparently, I was wrong. He came in the second time, and it was well forgotten. I swore by myself that it was the last time I was picking him up. There's no more a next time. Why? I had to be cool like that. Haha. 

Do you expect to be taught manners at this darn age? Hell no and in particular if you're older. Stop the crap and start learning manners. It's way too late to start learning but late is better than never.

The people around him may not have an issue with this, but I am really very particular. He should even thank me for teaching him manners. Who in the world would actually teach him, an older person manners? Ass.

Wait! Send yourself back to school please.

Learn to zip

We have met different people from different background throughout our entire lives. There are people who are there for some time, some not, and some are just there.

There are people whom you really wish from the bottom of the heart to stop talking so much, or stop talking altogether. It's impossible as a third party to stop what they say, when they talk, and what bull shit that comes out.

For some reason, they can really talk from the time they open their eyes to the time they close their eyes. I am not sure if I am amused with them, or I am so disgusted with it. Why don't they be teachers then, right? They can talk all day long and the students wouldn't stop you. According to a survey done, a woman speaks about 20,000 words a day. I believe I do not have 20,000. A guy I know, I strongly believe, he has 40,000 words at least. He talks that much that it comes to a point everyone is so irritated.

If you love listening to crappy stuff, maybe he's the perfect person. I do not know why do I deal with these kind in my life. It may not be a daily basis kinda thing, but it's frustrating. It's like an allergy. Like, ewwww.

God, help me. My tolerance cannot go any deeper. It's so bad for my blood pressure. Oh my lifespan. What I cannot take it is, people who love bragging though they are bad with it. Please. How can someone be like that? WHY?! And, I just have to meet them. WHY!

You will realize there are certain things you don't change, whether you're much younger, or you got older. This, is something I have not changed over the years. Tolerance towards people who brag has a tolerance of 0.001 out of 10. I am taught to be humble and I still live with that til today.

Learn to shut up maybe. Yucks.

Truth to be told

I was just browsing through websites and articles and I found this, the Narcissistic Personality Disorder. I think it affects many people.

Though it may seem like a social and cultural problem, it's still a mental disorder. Self-love is important, but having it til the extent of NPD is too extreme.

We need to face reality, but those with NPD overestimates their own capabilities and has excessive needs for affirmation as well as admiration. They are self-absorbed, self-centered, vain, selfish and everything is about them.

Probably, they are just an insecure bunch of people deep down. Look at the people around you, whether they are your friends or not. I am sure there are names that automatically pop into your head, or at least one. I know I have.

It's tiring and draining to have people like that. Like, why so self-absorbed? Even people are just being friendly on a surface level, they tend to think that everyone is in love with him/her. Really?! Honestly, there are many people out there who are better in every aspect, so why would people choose you, right? Think it logically. But again, they will think they are all that great, and on top of the world from physical attributes to their whatever it is.

Humans are generally nice and kind. Even though you are really ugly, you will be told you looked nice.  When you look lame, people will say you look great. I'm not sure if they are just trying to be polite, or they are trying not to hurt you with the truth. Either one, I guess a person with NPD should be happy having people as such around them. Likewise, you think you looked really cool or good looking, which of course not, they wouldn't tell you.  Or, you think that you are really good in whatever shit stuff when you're not, people don't really wanna break the honesty with you too. It's not a complaint, I am just impressed.

I pity them. At the same time, I cannot be the same as the others. I cannot lie to you, I cannot lie to myself as it's against my conscience. I need the truth to be out if I am being asked. When you're caught in that situation, all your human nature wears off. You will no longer pity them. You will feel really frustrated with them, their attitude, behavior and all that comes with them. Annoying, yes. Ignore? Please. Leave me alone, out of my sight if one is able. I beg you. Haha.

P/S: Do not try too hard to fit in, we are not in high school.

Stop Praying

We can no longer believe and trust someone is all good when they go to church / mosque / temple. Regardless the religion are you, it teaches you good things, be kind to people, do not do anything against a human's conscience, all in all, to the right path.

It doesn't wipe all your sins away just by praying. You don't even have to go to the place to worship, because everything is from within. People will be happy for you, friends will be glad, if you pray and regret all your wrongdoings. BUT, if you keep on doing things that is against a human conscience, yet go to the place of worship, you think you will be forgiven and all your sins will be wiped away? Stop joking. Don't kid me that way, that's an insult to a human's brain.

I do not care the religion you belong or the belief you have. I care how you treat people, pray, and victimize yourself. That's a brilliant way of living. While analyzing and thinking the past, I realize, perhaps, you're another sociopath in our community. I feel sad for people around you.

Those who care only for their own personal needs and desires, wanting to be the centre of attention all the time, with an abnormal social behavior. S/he may have many friends, or acquaintances, but just a few of close ones. People are leaving your side one after another. If you're not careful, you will be left alone very soon.

Conclusion? Stop praying if you're continue to step low, way down into that level of society when you can even bitch behind a friend's back. What makes one think that they can trust you? They obviously don't. With that attitude and the kind of luck in your life, you have my greatest sympathy, yet, I will remain my distance because I do not want to be that another victim of yours. Thank you so much. Again, there is a reason why one's life turned out this way, again and again, there's no luck in things he does. Why? it's just karma, dude!

I do not wanna have a friend and yet I have to becareful with my words.

I know I wouldn't

Over the years, we have our own friends come and go. Some stay for a longer time, some shorter. It's either they are there for you, or they teach you a lesson in life. Both are beneficial for you to grow as a person.

You always hear people saying that you know who your true or real friends are when you're down, when you needed someone, they are there. Maybe, that does not necessarily mean the case all the time.

Recently, I come to realize something new. Perhaps, we shouldn't measure things in that old stereotype way anymore. It can be measured in other means too.

I get very irritated when you're down, when you're blue, when you lose it in life because of some stupid break up, you go to people. Saying stuff I cannot live without her, without him, without all that shit. Then, you start thinking bout committing suicide regardless how much people cared. You only have that one person, even putting aside the family ties and the friends. How self-centered people are.  Nowadays I'll say, if you wanna know if that's really your friend, he or she will come to you regardless if it's a down time, or an up time. They don't leave you there. They share things with you. It's not about being an attention-seeker. It's more like if you cared, you want them to be there. It's as simple as that.

You can try saying it's the bf or it's the gf, like screw you I don't buy stuff as lame as that. Tell me something new. People like that wouldn't remember you anymore. You can put them aside and move on with life. Probably they will then appear when they finally get married. Or maybe not. Let's just say, they appear. Question, will you be so kind to bless them by going to his or her wedding?








I know, I wouldn't. I have many more things to do in life, such as drinking coffee.

And, that's not hatred. More like I live looking forward to the future, I've learnt my mistake from the past and I shall not repeat the same old mistake. I come, I see, I go.

That shows what kind of person are you. Never mind being busy, or first few months of honeymoon period, but anymore more than a certain timeframe, it's over. Things like that can neither be accepted nor forgiven. It's not even close to harsh. This is what friends are all about. They leave you when they do not need you anymore. I rather, I do not know you. That's when, we are all strangers that we probably had somehow crossed path at one point. That should then be left at how it was and never look back anymore.

I'll probably change how I think one day, but as of now, that's how things work in my brain. It's the principles of a basic friendship. It's your call. You choose how you live.

It's About Time

As you grow older, you realize there are people around you whom you cannot fathom. Probably, you just brush it aside as, ahh s/he is just being dramatic, or s/he is just craving for attention when you were younger. That may or may not be more acceptable. When you're young, everything you do, is more acceptable.

Not when you're older, or rather, much older. People expect you to be more matured, to be more realistic, to be more logical, and not act like a total idiot.

As a guy/girl, you don't go liking every single person out there that you encounter with. I don't call this immature. I call this being an idiot and desperado.

Regardless of the status of that person, you like him/her, being close to that person, only to regret later on and proudly brag about this? This is something you should be shameful of. Perhaps, this person is trying to victimize him/herself. Few months later, only to find yourself going to that path again.

My friend or not, this is someone I look down to. It doesn't matter if that other married party was the one initiating it, but you know you shouldn't be breaking people's family apart. It takes 2 to tango. You are wrong, it really just means you're wrong. You can say you are not wrong, if one insists, what can others say. It's still morally and socially wrong.

If single people don't like you, it means just one thing. There's something really wrong with you. If it's just one, two, three, or four, I can register. But, if it happens all the time, it's probably the attitude problem. If one is desperate, it's quite easy to tell. If you come off as a despo, you can't blame people for not liking you. People don't like a despo.

The quote "being classy is not about being stuck up. You need to cultivate respect for everyone, including yourself" is so right.

Do Not Wheedle

There are times that you can sympathize on others, and there are times you shouldn't.

It's not to be mean, but this is just to avoid unnecessary dramas. I always believe that if you are sick, always go to the doctor, instead of going over to people wheedling for whatever reason. A grown up should act as a grown up. It's not like others are able to cure you. A doctor is there for a reason.

I am the worst person you should be going to if you're sick, because I am just going to ignore you.

If, you're always being sick, it means one - you're not taking care of yourself. If you know you fall sick easily, then you should be taking extra precautions and not things for granted. Our body is projected differently and some are stronger than the others, some are healthier than the others. If you're born weak, then you should be avoiding a lot of unhealthy stuff and take more nutrients. Avoid alcohol and nicotine and whatever that doesn't benefit your health.

Honestly, week in, week out, it's annoying to get a message / someone goes to you to say, headache today, sinus tomorrow, tonsils the next day, followed by migraine, back pain, leg pain, whatever pain and etc. If you're so sick, it means you're living the wrong way. Stop acting and exaggerating everything. I've been there, I know it. Either that, you are that sick, then do something and stop going to people that cannot cure you.

Maybe, I should be sending the same kind to these people. Then, they know how it feels like. But to me, I wouldn't bother even if you're sick, really. Stop the dramas and live the proper way. You're not a kid.

Inconsiderate, tactless neighbor

Some of us are lucky enough to have nice neighbors, or non-existent neighbors. Both are in the same category, they don't bother about you, and life is all good.

If, you have a very inconsiderate, tactless, selfish and self-centered neighbor, there's nothing you can do too. It's very unfortunate of me that I have that kind of neighbor. The whole family, act exactly the same. Rich doesn't mean anything to me. If you have the money, you gotta show it by being courteous, and most importantly, common sense.

Just because you have a freaking auto gate, does that mean that everyone have to tolerate your brainless act? Perhaps, he had forgotten that nobody owes them. Once, I thought he had a pea brain. Now, I am so convinced they are all brainless. Considering that the 2 lanes we have are small and narrow enough, he had to freaking park half of it.

I'm sure they are thoughtless, and maybe, you're going to say it's okay, once or twice is fine. He, or they had been doing that for as long as I know. It's very difficult if your neighbor is a moron and raised an idiotic family.

I really wonder, where have they been that they are so feeble-minded? Bollocks. It's a waste of time trying to tell them stuff like that. I just wish the whole family disappear from my life. I have been suffering for more than a decade. Calling them tosh is just an understatement. Once a wanker, always a wanker.

When someone is educated, we look into all these qualities. Without all of that, you are considered uneducated.

At That Age

Those my age and not married yet, I am sure many of them are already worried. "Oh no, I am already at that age, I must get married." What mentality is that?

But, why? I asked "isn't that too soon, and this is like Fast and Furious" told me "I am at that age." Omg, are we at the 20th century or what. I do feel that way.

Recently, someone, another one, told me that. "I am at that age." There are no other things to say apparently. So, you are speeding things up, and so conveniently someone appeared in front of you, and so, you jump in the bandwagon just because you are "at that age."

Initially, it was "no, I don't feel that way towards him" 1 week later, it was an opposite response. I do not wanna know. Then, the conversations are all about him thereafter. How boring. Oh my life, why is it surrounded by them.

Then, the talk about marriage. REALLY?! Okay, understood "at that age" totally got it. Please proceed and do not bother me. When being teased "very bad okay" HELLO?! What now? I'm bad? Humans like that, please leave me alone.

It's all about "that age." That's all I am hearing. Can we really know anyone in less than 6 months with very rare meetings. I wonder. It's all about "the age, that age, the age." OKay, I think I am getting irritated.

"I wanna have kids." I think I am the last person you wanna talk to about that. Okay fine "please get married because you are the age. Otherwise, I will feel burdened."

I know, this is not the only one. There are many out there who act that way, just because they have hit that age. So, if there's anyone out there, just anyone, good enough, okay time to talk about marriage. I find this whole stuff very creepy. They get so desperate, they get so whatever, they just get married to whoever. Are you sure? "He seems nice and I'm comfortable." OMG I FEEL LIKE DYING. Goodbye, go away.

Drama Loves Me

I was out with the #kws last month during CNY. It was the first this year, and it has been quite awhile we haven't stayed out that late. It wasn't really late, just 2AM maybe?

By the time we finished both the movies, it was already 12 ish 1 and we haven't had our dinner.

What made me mad was the fact that when we were in the midst of wefie, one stupid damn idiot came from afar wanting to take our pictures. C'mon! What a disgrace and despicable thing to do. Taking people's picture without their consent? It's a crime if you think about it. Taking one's property is stealing which is a crime. ASK first before doing it. It's not like I'm gonna say yes to any of that. But, be a man, be a human to be upfront of whatever you wanna do.

Then, we headed to McD. This was interesting. We sat, we ate, we talked. Typical. This older looking woman, or in another term, we call her ahjumma (aunty), sat at the next table. As we were laughing and talking, I noticed like there was someone starring and glaring at us. You just can't explain but you know that feeling. When I looked at her, she started scolding us. For obvious reason, we were speaking in English. But, she said that in Chinese. "I know you are talking about me. Don't pretend. Even if you speak in English, don't think that I don't know. If you dare, speak in Chinese, why speak in English." And, she left. We were left blank. Since when we were talking about her, I just didn't know. Aunty, this person here doesn't speak Chinese. Enough said.

My life is dramatic, I know that.

Oh My Ass

Oh I realized I haven't blogged about this.

Late last year, it was such a beautiful evening, I finished work, ready to have a great evening with Kyliie, nice, pleasant and quiet dinner with coffee. As I was driving towards KDU (where I need to pick Kyliie up), just out of the blue, I had a knock from behind, I mean, a bang.

If it wasn't too bad, I don't mind letting her go. But, it was bad. The bumper dented in. There's no way I am letting the woman go. Stupid woman.

Then, there's some dude, told us to go down so we don't hold up the traffic. I went, waited for this woman, 2 hours. 2 hours I can already go to the airport, back to KL twice.

After all the drama that happened, we went to the police station. Yada yada ... it is indeed frustrating, my whole night was ruined.

Thank you to the woman who banged my car, I truly appreciate it as you made me involved in an accident, for the first time ever.

Oh, after I have done the reporting, she came in, and she asked the guy how does she fill up the details of the incidental report. Seriously? Are you really that dumb? IF, you do not know how to fill in these kind of details, the most simple details ever, then don't try using your phone while driving. Common sense. After you have banged someone car, human's sense is to apologize. Oh she didn't even apologize in the beginning.

What a screwed up human. She was speaking Mandarin to me in the first place. Of course, I looked at her one kind, and being so annoyed, I went "WHAT?!" only then she switched to English, with some difficulty. The dude who was helping her to fill in the form asked what's her occupation. It's a horror really, she said she's a lecturer. Lecturer, and not a teacher. University students? Really?

Now I know the answer of the young's generation quality deterioration. I have the answer now, right upon my eyes. How can we expect the kids to behave well, to have basic manners, to have all those that you thought all humans should when the lecturers are behaving in such a way, acting so dumb and irritating, right? It's almost game over now, the next generation.

I had to go being all dramatic, I gotta say that if I ever faint, the reason is because I need to go through this sick procedure of an accident rather than having a nice dinner somewhere. STUPID. Then only, she apologized. Annoying species.

Green-eyed Granny

I wonder, why is my life so dramatic. It's not only these days, but it has always been very dramatic. It's not only drama, but I think I am a weirdo magnet too. I have always been teased with that. Sighs. Why, tell me why.

I was at a wedding few months ago, and with just that few hours we were there, so many things happened. I am very sure I didn't do anything. Or, is my existence so powerful? Haha. How could it be, right?

The moment the trio arrived at the table, we were starred and glared, from up to down and down to up. That look at that pair of eyes were so irritating that you feel like slapping that specimen. It has been such a long long time I've not felt that way. We were innocent saying hi to the people we have not seen in awhile. It's only normal that you say hi to people you have not been keeping in touch often. As a friend, as a girl friend, as a whatever you wanna be, stay out, you ass.

Just because you are supposed to be someone's girlfriend, it doesn't serve you a right to stare at us. Remember granny, jealousy kills every relationship. You can freaking bang your head there til it bleeds non stop. You moron. Who cares even if you are the girlfriend. Continue being that and you will be ditched. I'm sorry but, we have known each other for 7.5 years. Granny, wake up. We don't care if you sulk the whole night. It only makes you unhappy and we will still laugh away. Hehe.

Beneath a happy wedding that has 2 hearts united as one, is a very dramatic dinner table. Haha.