Toby, we miss you

It's May 27th today and how time flies, it has been 2 years Toby had left us all. I still remembered that one fateful day that had changed my life forever.


Life after that day has never been the same. It's just a matter of time and it's about getting used to not having him around but it will not be easy. I had already tried preparing myself for that and I thought I will be strong enough to accept it when that day comes. Just when I thought I was, I failed terribly. I was not ready physically, mentally and emotionally.

On that morning, I heard a knock on my door as I was preparing to work and I thought hey something had gone wrong only to learn that Toby had all left us. The night before I was actually upstairs. Something had told me that I must get down to see him. That ... was the last ever time I saw him in this life and I didn't know that was my last time seeing him in this life. I shouldn't have gone up after that. I should have stayed on there to accompany him. I was trying very hard to cope with life and man, I was just too depressed to do anything else. Each time when I was not occupied with things, he came into my mind, the memories of him came into my heard and that got me even more depressed than I already was. It was a very tough phrase to go through. I was not eating, drinking, sleeping and workig properly. It took me quite awhile before I could actually accept the fact that he's gone forever and he's not coming back to be my side, to be there for me whenever I needed him.

I know that he's watching over us and he's in a better place. Though it has been 2 years, whenever I think of him, I still feel that painful moment at times. He had definitely played a very big role during my growing up years. It was like we practically grew up together. He was the only one and I meant one and only one in my teenage years who was there for me whenever I was down. He was my best ever friend.

He might not be a human but he had proved that he can be better than human. Toby, you are the best guy ever! We miss you a lot ^^