Disappointment

It's just a disappointment, really.

As humans, we have our conscious mind, or rather we should have our conscious mind. What seperates us humans and the animals are the level of intellectual, that, we, should be able to think, and do and act accordingly, like we know what can we do, what should we do, what can't we do and what we should not do. I know there is no right or wrong, should or should not in life, but sometimes we, ourselves, should set the boundaries, in order not to go against our conscious.

Certain things, we just want things to be simple and straightforward, but our human counterparts, just make things look so awkward, and make things so much more complicated. We are now talking about sincerity and sometimes just wishing that it wasn't like that. Sometimes, you really thought that you finally met someone nice, someone good hearted but in the end of the day, what is left with you is just some disappointment that someone had done. We always hope that everyone is genuine unfortunately, things do not always work that way.

Sometimes, your instincts tell you that things are heading to a different direction, to somewhere that you do not want it to head to. Having said that, you wanna avoid it, you wanna prevent it. Thus, you act differently from what you used to, you turned ignorant, you become oblivious about your surroundings.

When you don't believe in certain things, you wouldn't carry out certain acts, that make you feel destroyed, and all you wanna do is to avoid doing the normal human mistakes. You wanna lead a normal life, a life filled with happiness, and not uncertainties. Uncetainties. And more uncertainties involved.

Sometimes, things happen when you least expect it. You wanna the best to happen, but the worst occurs. You feel that one whole load of you had disappeared and left you with just your physicals and without the souls due to something that leave you traumatized and dreadfully disappointed with things are.